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making a paw /and leather pouch...need a light or wolf pale paw..and leather. thank you :)

Looking for a white/or lighter...pale....ivory etc. wolf paw...to make a pouch with..prefer claws in...will pay or trade...i live in the US. please note me if any one has one they want to find a home for? :)


EXAMPLE OF PAW...(LOOKING FOR ONE like this one) 

wolf of white paw by lamelobo

also if wants $ or to trade ...for..any some "white or bone" colored...

like leather in this link ?

www.ebay.com/itm/5-6-oz-BONE-M…



moose/elk or deer..good leather ....am intrested.
note me please.

i live in the US. thank you kindly 
lobo
  • Listening to: my lovebirds squack.....
  • Drinking: big o'l glass of water
bear sale
UPDATED SOW SKULL HAS SOLD....(0n right)
BEST OFFER...TALKING NEED TO MOVE THIS ASAP !!!! :D

FORM ON LEFT AND MIDDLE are .... $50
and bone included (elk or bison bone)
US ONLY 
BUYER PAYS SHIPPING
thank you 

:)





PLEASE READ READ READ........ :D 

......ALL LEGAL...GREAT FOR TAXIDERMY , REFERENCE FOR DRAWING , COSTUMES...ANYTHING.NO REAL ANIMAL PARTS....


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taxidermy rug shell forms.

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1. BROWN BEAR /GRIZZLY OPEN MOUTH TAXIDERMY RUG FORM  plus BLACK BEAR RUG SHELL OPEN MOUTH FORM BOTH FOR
$5o.oo or best offer
PLUS SHIPPING

:D YES YES...THE ELK/OR BISON... BONE IN THE MOUTH COMES WITH THE BEAR SHELL LOL :D
ON THE FAR left BROWN BEAR/GRIZZLY OPEN MOUTH (HAS BONE IN MOUTH )rug shell form FROM :iconzhon: 
has plastic jaw-set 
bone in mouth included

********same rug shell that :iconnaturepunk: used with their brown bearslayer work. *****
PLEASE READ READ READ READ

THIS PHOTO IS AN EXAMPLE OF THE BROWN BEAR RUG SHELL...EXAMPLE...
THIS IS NATUREPUNKS WORK....
THE ONLY REASON I USE NATUREPUNKS PHOTO IS FOR COMPARISON. WITH UPMOST RESPECT THANK YOU AND I RESPECT NATUREPUNKS WORK.
(FORM ONLY OF NATUREPUNK'S) PHOTO.

AGAIN NOT THE BROWN BEAR HIDE...JUST THE FORM...I AM USING THIS PHOTO AS AN EXAMPLE. OF THE FORM I HAVE TO OFFER FOR SALE.....
THE FORM IN THE PHOTO IS NATURE PUNK'S...POSTED AS AN EXAMPLE....
JUST AN EXAMPLE.
ANY COMMENTS OF CONFUSION PLEASE NOTE ME...
NO HIDE BEAR HIDE.....JUST A FOAM RUG SHELL FORM. :D

I AM SORRY.....SORRY BUT I HAVE TO BE VERY CLEAR. AND RESPECTFUL !!! 
fav.me/d5bcsae
BearSlayer by NaturePunk 
(IS AN EXAMPLE.... OF THE SAME .....rug shell  FORM I AM SELLING ONLY ...(NOT NATUREPUNK'S TAXIDERMY BEAR..OR FORM.) 

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WILL TOSS IN FOR FREE WITH GRIZZLY BEAR FORM ALL FOR 50$ PLUS SHIPPING

2. BLACK BEAR OPEN MOUHT RUG FORM/SHELL WITH TAXIDERMY JAWSET TEETH....NO TONGUE.

in the center of photo 
 is a black bear open mouth rug shell taxidermy form


WILL TOSS IN FOR FREE WITH GRIZZLY BEAR FORM ALL FOR 50$ PLUS SHIPPING



 FORM IS IN THE CENTER OF PHOTO
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3. FINALLY,

CAST BROWN BEAR SOW SKULL WITH CAST TONQUE AND EYES HAS SOLD !!!!!! :)

SOLD

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BUYER PAYS SHIPPING.

US ONLY ALL LEGAL....! 

:)

PLEASE READ READ READ......:

I AM SORRY...NO TRADES I AM SORRY.

I DONT NEED THESE ITEMS ANY MORE. I AM SELLING OFF EVERYTHING...I NEED TO PAY BILLS.


THESE ARE AWESOME DEALS. :D

I WILL WORK WITH YOU ON PRICE....NOTE ME. ***************





FINALLY IF YOU WANT THE BOTH RUG SHELLS I WILL ASK 50$  or best offer note me...FOR BOTH PLUS SHIPPING.***********NOTE ME PLEASE.


PAYPAL PREFERRED.

OR MAKE ME AN OFFER I CANT REFUSE.:)


all resin and cast....no real bear parts. 

great deal

NOTE ME. PLEASE IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS OR WANT MORE PHOTOS :D 
thank you kindly lobo

I POST THIS WITH UPMOST RESPECT. IF YOU HAVE ANY COMMENTS PLEASE NOTE ME..AND PLEASE...NO REAL BEAR PARTS ARE USED...THE ONLY REAL PART IT THE BONE IN THE BEARS MOUTH...(IT IS AN ELK OR BISON)

READ READ READ PLEASE

AND FEEL FREE TO NOTE ME. 

THANK YOU KINDLY 

I WILL WORK WITH PRICE.

THANK YOU KINDLY AGAIN FOR LOOKING 

LOBO

PARDON MY TYPOS.:blush:


update; doing a little betters. my friends ..niece has been helping me...by talking to me. that is a very very dear thing. to have when you lose someone i dont try to dwell on negative things...i talk about good things. :heart: 

my grandma went to the er again today ...epp. 5 am...yikes i went to bed at 3 am. so it is crazy..but okay. i will say this. thank you for all the folks that have been there and are there for me. i am so so grateful. so much thank you.

please know that i am grateful i may ramble or make no sense sometimes. but i truly am grateful. thank you to all with love and light. 
lobo





-WHAT WE DO IN LIFE ECHOES IN ETERNITY-

Gladiator






a very dear friend of mine passed weds. They have been a friend of mine from childhood and life..... They have been fighting a long struggle for a while. I was told thurs. morning about their passing.

 It is a  hard thing to stomach.

 I will not go into details with respect for my dear friend. but... i have known for a months or more they were VERY SICK.

 I ask everyone one to pardon my sadness and lack of replies lately. 

I thank everyone whom replied on my last post.DEARLY i will respond. i mean that.

 i am very withdrawn right now. 

But i know that grieving is important for everyone. I send love and light to everyone. 

life is a blessing. though sometimes. it can be so harsh...it truly is a blessing. ...

it hurts to lose this freind. truly. i am sure others have lost loved ones or family...and or friends. i say that sincerely.

but....life is very short and ...very a very precious thing. I thank you for all that you do

 ....i am drawing. that is my gift i think 

and the best way to let out my emotions. so with all my heart. please know i appreciate every little thing folks do dearly. with all my heart. 

pardon my typos. 

(lobo)

:heart:



thoughts on depression and self esteem. i have for a long time battled depression. sometimes....horrific anxiety. i have taken the medication route. i do think it helps some folks....i prefer never to do that again. i have tried a therapist...and sometimes...other various professional help to try to cope with my sadness. I found that some where good...others did more damage. i have tried to internalize my sadness, hoping it would go away. That did not work..lead me to toxic health and thinking. i have read books by great souls to try to understand sadness, and anxiety. sometimes i found i could relate to others....stories. I tried groups to talk, and found that i was not the only one...and my problems...seemed much smaller compared to others issues. sincerely i say that. i have tried diet food changes...and have found that somethings help..others not so much...that also applies to sleep and environment i live in to...PLENTY OF WATER IS A MUST. 

i have taken a step back from social networking and mass media, and find that sometimes i need it for personal communication. 

I have tried yoga, and found that you need to stay constant with it. yoga i miss. i have even gone as far as to take moments out of my day to day life to try to relax. I find that moments can be hard to do ...when i have responsibilities i need to talk care for. i have bought material things...and found i was more broke and needed to try to ....edit my stuff and try to give to others. i have taken random musical artists and listened to them...hoping that music would help me. i find i have gotten tired of some albums...and that sometimes music makes me worse. sometimes. 

i have found that others deeply deal with depression, and i am not the only one. i have tired extreme cry's for help and found that i really need to say my prayers...and be grateful i can stand on my own two feet. i really am trying.

i guess that is the best thing i can do ....is to keep trying...to overcome. sometimes. i just feel horrid. not sure how to talk, or tackle my episodes. i draw and make things.
i am grateful for my friends and loved ones. i am blessed to have food and personal freedoms.

my self esteem has been so low lately it is really affecting my life. sadly...i am trying ...to keep my eyes up to the sky.

but my depression and anxiety are getting really hard to over come...these past few days. 

i am writing this ....in hopes that if you read this and are dealing with depression and or anxiety. that you are not alone. and that knowing that is a very POWERFUL.
help. 
prayer to. however you deem to pray.
but finally, today i found that i am soul tired.

i am sorry to sound so darn...blue...but i am just really down. please know all the little things you do ....do make life matter......i thank you. for you time.


"WHAT WE DO IN LIFE ECHOES IN ETERNITY" 
-GLADIATOR-

pardon my typos. 
sincerely 
lobo
I am gonna post FEW items one more time
cause i wanted to see if any folks might have interest?
My father is a Jeweler, and I have had the honor to work with him....with these items.




1. i210.photobucket.com/albums/bb…
100$ is the price!!!!!! (it is worth alot more) :)
one is a Kodiak bear K9 top tooth
sliver capped
with jade bezel'd stones.
pendant HIGH QUALITY. A LOT OF TIME WENT INTO THIS PIECE.

tooth is huge
the other


2.

i210.photobucket.com/albums/bb…


6o$ BOTTOM PRICE
is a piece of fossilized walrus ivory.
both of these items where given to me by my father.
(this piece of ivory came off a large knife handle) beautiful piece.

and i wanted to say
if you any one has interest in them.



FINALLY, I HAVE TO BLACK BEAR CLAWS....HIGH QUALITY. BOTH FOR 23$


:thumb369031698:

yes state LAWS STRICTLY APPLY.

BEAR CLAWS ARE ON RIGHT AND LEFT OF PHOTO.
LION CLAW IS SOLD...(MIDDLE CLAW)
please note me. ...if you have questions

3. I HAVE ABOUT 8 OZ OF PORKY (PORCUPINE QUILL HAIRS) ALL CLEANED SORTED AND VERY NICE QUALITY FOR SALE. THEY CAN BE USED FOR FUR SUIT HEADS FOR WHISKERS.....PORKY NATIVE AMERICAN ROACH HEADDRESS AND ETC. VERY GOOD DEAL. NOTE ME IF YOU WANT PHOTOS AND INTREST. 
(STERILE AND CLEAN TOO AND SORTED)


4. DEER TAILS OF DIFFERENT COLORS....(HIGH END..BEAUTIFUL QUALITY GOT THEM FROM A TAXIDERMIST IN MY HOME STATE) !!!! :)
note me for intrest of photos.


I NEED TO SELL STUFF. I AM WILLING TO CUT A GOOD DEAL. :)



for sale only ..i am sorry no trades...sincerely

if these don't find a new home.
i am gonna move them onto etsy. :(

i am saving my funds. I can only ship in the US

Finally thank you.
US shipping only ....and one or two dollars for shipping.
lobo

:heart: thank you always for looking
  • Watching: vikings on the history channel
  • Drinking: big o glass of water always.

inspriration, thank you.

Sun Jun 2, 2013, 5:28 PM
I just found this artist's work,

:thumb374861456:
and i am literally in awe. so MUCH  beautiful work!!!!! Dearly...

I think there are so many talented artists and artisans. and i am grateful to see their work !!!!
to everyone i say..thank you !!!!!
with love and light to all.
lobo

:thumb326123600:

THe artist i mentioned is :iconlaurenmarxartwork:

:)

thank you kindly to everyone. with love and light to all always.
lobo
:heart:

  • Watching: vikings on the history channel
  • Drinking: big o glass of water always.

Devious Journal Entry

Sun Jun 2, 2013, 5:27 PM
I just found this artist's work,

:thumb374861456:
and i am literally in awe. so MUCH  beautiful work!!!!! Dearly...

I think there are so many talented artists and artisans. and i am grateful to see their work !!!!
to everyone i say..thank you !!!!!
with love and light to all.
lobo

:thumb326123600:

THe artist i mentioned is :iconlaurenmarxartwork:

:)

thank you kindly to everyone. with love and light to all always.
lobo
:heart:

  • Watching: vikings on the history channel
  • Drinking: big o glass of water always.

thank you.

Thu May 30, 2013, 12:03 AM
thank you for all your kindness.
with much love and light
to all always.lobo

  • Watching: vikings on the history channel
  • Drinking: big o glass of water always.
wow.
there have been 3 deaths within my family this past weekend...and today
and also with some dearly loved friends..that where like family... over this weekend.


just wow.
i am beyond tears. speechless :(

please i thank everyone for your kindness.... thank you for the work and things all do to make life matter.
sincerely.

wow.


:(
  • Watching: vikings on the history channel
  • Drinking: big o glass of water always.
i never knew someone else's pets could really find a place in my heart. yesterday the fella i am dating had to put both his cats down. they where very sick and very old. :( and where very well loved.

i had really warmed up to them. these cats actually have a place in my heart.

so after a few tears...i began to look at all the work and amazing creations..talent.... folks do..here on da and in general.

i wanted to say that the random things...or artwork that artists here on da. and also everywhere really do make life matters. I smile. i mean. it brings me joy to see all that folks do....and do for others. what you create.

pardon my typos and grammer..:blush:

sincerely. i loved those two cats. but i know they are in a better place now.... i thank everyone whom everyday continues to keep creating and doint their own vision of art and or  work...that to me makes me smile.

i wanted to sincerely say thank you.
with a bit of emotion. all the things folks do really does make life matter.

for that.
i am blessed and say thank you .

much love and light
lobo

:heart:
  • Watching: vikings on the history channel
  • Drinking: big o glass of water always.
:thumb369031698:
1.
i have one african lion claw
2.5 high quality and LOW PRICE NOTE ME.

2.

2 black bear claws
high grade quality.
i am trying to sell. LOW PRICE NOTE ME>

possibly a trade.
i can only ship in the us.
and state laws apply

LOW price. note me if you have intrest.

LOOKING FOR...
would like to find a polar pre ban claw...

2.
might  for a trade for a kodiak bear k9 jade and sliver necklace.
(beautiful ...huge. made by my father & i...my dad is a professional jeweler.
only us. please note me for photos.)

all USA only sorry.
state laws strictly apply.

and finally.

thank you kindly.
have a few other things as far as teeth can claws note me if intrested.

thank you always.
lobo
:iconsharpe19: hope you feel better !!! with love and light !!!
  • Watching: vikings on the history channel
  • Drinking: big o glass of water always.
PLEASE READ BEFORE COMMENTING :

NOTE ON THE ETHICS OF TAXIDERMY:

PLEASE DO NOT LEAVE RUDE OR HATEFUL COMMENTS. IF YOU CHOOSE TO DO SO YOU WILL BE BLOCKED OR REPORTED. THESE ITEMS WHERE TAKEN HUMANLY , LEGALLY AND WHERE TAKEN FROM LEFT OVER AND OR SCRAP OR RECYCLED HIDES. THANK YOU KINDLY SAID WITH UP-MOST RESPECT TO OUR ENVIRONMENT AND TO ALL CREATURES THAT WE ALL COEXIST WITH.....AND TO RESPECT TOO THESE ANIMALS. I ENCOURAGE PROACTIVE QUESTIONS. I ALSO SHOW MY UP-MOST RESPECT TOWARDS ALL ANIMALS AND LIVING CREATURES SAID SINCERELY TO ALL LIVING AND NON LIVING CREATURES THAT WE ALL CO EXIST WITH
I CAN ONLY SHIP IN THE US PLEASE. :heart:

well thank you for looking kindly :heart:

i have a few things i would like to sale or trade

i know other folks are trying to sell and trade too.
so i want to encourage everyone to proactively take a look around.
:)

i say that with up-most respect and sincerity . there are some amazing things for sale and trades... and artists on da.

stuff for sale and or trade:
African lion claw bout 2.5 inches for sale (high quality low price)
2 black bear claws (perfect of jewelry etc)
a piece of dall sheep horn for carving
a Kodiak bear tooth pendant with jade stones and silver cap. beautiful
some other various predator teeth (k9's)

please note me on any questions.......
or if any one would like photos

and finally. i thank all for your time. and wish all a wonderful week ahead. <3

ps. state LAWS STICKILY APPLY.
paypal prefer'd
buyer pays shipping.
AND i cant ship out of the us.
sincerely
warm smiles

PLEASE READ BEFORE COMMENTING :

NOTE ON THE ETHICS OF TAXIDERMY:

PLEASE DO NOT LEAVE RUDE OR HATEFUL COMMENTS. IF YOU CHOOSE TO DO SO YOU WILL BE BLOCKED OR REPORTED. THESE ITEMS WHERE TAKEN HUMANLY , LEGALLY AND WHERE TAKEN FROM LEFT OVER AND OR SCRAP OR RECYCLED HIDES. THANK YOU KINDLY SAID WITH UP-MOST RESPECT TO OUR ENVIRONMENT AND TO ALL CREATURES THAT WE ALL COEXIST WITH.....AND TO RESPECT TOO THESE ANIMALS. I ENCOURAGE PROACTIVE QUESTIONS. I ALSO SHOW MY UP-MOST RESPECT TOWARDS ALL ANIMALS AND LIVING CREATURES SAID SINCERELY TO ALL LIVING AND NON LIVING CREATURES THAT WE ALL CO EXIST WITH


PS. :iconsharpe19: i hope you feel betters. !!! <3
  • Watching: vikings on the history channel
  • Drinking: big o glass of water always.
PLEASE LOOK AT :iconzhon: 's amazing sale !!!! they have amazing stuff up ... dearly !!! :heart:
please look !!!!!! :)
LINK TO :iconzhon: sale :thumb368568288:          
fav.me/d63fp40


:wow: :)

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predator claws for sale  BEST OFFER <=================
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PLEASE READ BEFORE COMMENTING :

NOTE ON THE ETHICS OF THESE CLAWS AND TAXIDERMY:
:thumb369031698:
PLEASE DO NOT LEAVE RUDE OR HATEFUL COMMENTS. IF YOU CHOOSE TO DO SO YOU WILL BE BLOCKED OR REPORTED. THESE CLAWS WHERE TAKEN HUMANLY , LEGALLY AND WHERE TAKEN FROM LEFT OVER AND OR SCRAP OR RECYCLED HIDES. THANK YOU KINDLY SAID WITH UPMOST RESPECT TO OUR ENVIRONMENT AND TO ALL CREATURES THAT WE ALL COEXIST WITH.....AND TO RESPECT TOO THESE ANIMALS. IN THIS CASE A LION AND A BEAR. I ENCOURAGE PROACTIVE QUESTIONS. I ALSO SHOW MY UPMOST RESPECT TOWARDS ALL ANIMALS AND LIVING CREATURES SAID SINCERELY TO ALL LIVING AND NON LIVING CREATURES THAT WE ALL CO EXIST WITH...

MAKE ME YOUR BEST OFFER. :)
one African lion claw
(2.5 inches) highest quality would be perfect for a pendant or anything.
best offer please
(legal to own in the US )
Front claw.
can only ship in the us.

two REAL front black bear claws (left and right)
(little over 2 inches) great quality ...black bear (needs minor sanding great quality)
best offer please
(STATE LAWS apply) note me if you should have any questions.
can only ship in the US)

i prefer paypal please
will consider trades
PLEASE FEEL FREE TO NOTE ME.

i can not ship out of the US !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i will def. do my best to help with any proactive questions. if you dont ask ...how else are you to know

make me your best offer.
thank you kindly



Lobo
  • Listening to: alice in chains
  • Drinking: big o glass of water always.
thank you with much love and light.
lobo
  • Listening to: the fountain soundtrack
  • Drinking: big ol\\\&#039;glass of water. always.
i have thought long and hard over this speech and felt the need to post this. with all my respect. to all with love and light.:heart: ...this is water ...made me think.

THIS IS WATER

David by Active-Radio

DAVID FOSTER WALLACE


This is the commencement address he gave to the graduates of Kenyon College in 2005. It captures his electric mind, and also his humility--the way he elevated and made meaningful, beautiful, many of the lonely thoughts that rattle around in our heads. The way he put better thoughts in our heads, too. (Many thanks to Marginalia.org for making this available.)

(If anybody feels like perspiring [cough], I'd advise you to go ahead, because I'm sure going to. In fact I'm gonna [mumbles while pulling up his gown and taking out a handkerchief from his pocket].) Greetings ["parents"?] and congratulations to Kenyon's graduating class of 2005. There are these two young fish swimming along and they happen to meet an older fish swimming the other way, who nods at them and says "Morning, boys. How's the water?" And the two young fish swim on for a bit, and then eventually one of them looks over at the other and goes "What the hell is water?"

This is a standard requirement of US commencement speeches, the deployment of didactic little parable-ish stories. The story ["thing"] turns out to be one of the better, less bullshitty conventions of the genre, but if you're worried that I plan to present myself here as the wise, older fish explaining what water is to you younger fish, please don't be. I am not the wise old fish. The point of the fish story is merely that the most obvious, important realities are often the ones that are hardest to see and talk about. Stated as an English sentence, of course, this is just a banal platitude, but the fact is that in the day to day trenches of adult existence, banal platitudes can have a life or death importance, or so I wish to suggest to you on this dry and lovely morning.

Of course the main requirement of speeches like this is that I'm supposed to talk about your liberal arts education's meaning, to try to explain why the degree you are about to receive has actual human value instead of just a material payoff. So let's talk about the single most pervasive cliché in the commencement speech genre, which is that a liberal arts education is not so much about filling you up with knowledge as it is about "teaching you how to think". If you're like me as a student, you've never liked hearing this, and you tend to feel a bit insulted by the claim that you needed anybody to teach you how to think, since the fact that you even got admitted to a college this good seems like proof that you already know how to think. But I'm going to posit to you that the liberal arts cliché turns out not to be insulting at all, because the really significant education in thinking that we're supposed to get in a place like this isn't really about the capacity to think, but rather about the choice of what to think about. If your total freedom of choice regarding what to think about seems too obvious to waste time discussing, I'd ask you to think about fish and water, and to bracket for just a few minutes your scepticism about the value of the totally obvious.

Here's another didactic little story. There are these two guys sitting together in a bar in the remote Alaskan wilderness. One of the guys is religious, the other is an atheist, and the two are arguing about the existence of God with that special intensity that comes after about the fourth beer. And the atheist says: "Look, it's not like I don't have actual reasons for not believing in God. It's not like I haven't ever experimented with the whole God and prayer thing. Just last month I got caught away from the camp in that terrible blizzard, and I was totally lost and I couldn't see a thing, and it was 50 below, and so I tried it: I fell to my knees in the snow and cried out 'Oh, God, if there is a God, I'm lost in this blizzard, and I'm gonna die if you don't help me.'" And now, in the bar, the religious guy looks at the atheist all puzzled. "Well then you must believe now," he says, "After all, here you are, alive." The atheist just rolls his eyes. "No, man, all that was was a couple Eskimos happened to come wandering by and showed me the way back to camp."
It's easy to run this story through kind of a standard liberal arts analysis: the exact same experience can mean two totally different things to two different people, given those people's two different belief templates and two different ways of constructing meaning from experience. Because we prize tolerance and diversity of belief, nowhere in our liberal arts analysis do we want to claim that one guy's interpretation is true and the other guy's is false or bad. Which is fine, except we also never end up talking about just where these individual templates and beliefs come from. Meaning, where they come from INSIDE the two guys. As if a person's most basic orientation toward the world, and the meaning of his experience were somehow just hard-wired, like height or shoe-size; or automatically absorbed from the culture, like language. As if how we construct meaning were not actually a matter of personal, intentional choice. Plus, there's the whole matter of arrogance. The nonreligious guy is so totally certain in his dismissal of the possibility that the passing Eskimos had anything to do with his prayer for help. True, there are plenty of religious people who seem arrogant and certain of their own interpretations, too. They're probably even more repulsive than atheists, at least to most of us. But religious dogmatists' problem is exactly the same as the story's unbeliever: blind certainty, a close-mindedness that amounts to an imprisonment so total that the prisoner doesn't even know he's locked up.
David Foster Wallace by AllInADays
The point here is that I think this is one part of what teaching me how to think is really supposed to mean. To be just a little less arrogant. To have just a little critical awareness about myself and my certainties. Because a huge percentage of the stuff that I tend to be automatically certain of is, it turns out, totally wrong and deluded. I have learned this the hard way, as I predict you graduates will, too.

Here is just one example of the total wrongness of something I tend to be automatically sure of: everything in my own immediate experience supports my deep belief that I am the absolute centre of the universe; the realest, most vivid and important person in existence. We rarely think about this sort of natural, basic self-centredness because it's so socially repulsive. But it's pretty much the same for all of us. It is our default setting, hard-wired into our boards at birth. Think about it: there is no experience you have had that you are not the absolute centre of. The world as you experience it is there in front of YOU or behind YOU, to the left or right of YOU, on YOUR TV or YOUR monitor. And so on. Other people's thoughts and feelings have to be communicated to you somehow, but your own are so immediate, urgent, real.

Please don't worry that I'm getting ready to lecture you about compassion or other-directedness or all the so-called virtues. This is not a matter of virtue. It's a matter of my choosing to do the work of somehow altering or getting free of my natural, hard-wired default setting which is to be deeply and literally self-centered and to see and interpret everything through this lens of self. People who can adjust their natural default setting this way are often described as being "well-adjusted", which I suggest to you is not an accidental term.

Given the triumphant academic setting here, an obvious question is how much of this work of adjusting our default setting involves actual knowledge or intellect. This question gets very tricky. Probably the most dangerous thing about an academic education--least in my own case--is that it enables my tendency to over-intellectualise stuff, to get lost in abstract argument inside my head, instead of simply paying attention to what is going on right in front of me, paying attention to what is going on inside me.

As I'm sure you guys know by now, it is extremely difficult to stay alert and attentive, instead of getting hypnotised by the constant monologue inside your own head (may be happening right now). Twenty years after my own graduation, I have come gradually to understand that the liberal arts cliché about teaching you how to think is actually shorthand for a much deeper, more serious idea: learning how to think really means learning how to exercise some control over how and what you think. It means being conscious and aware enough to choose what you pay attention to and to choose how you construct meaning from experience. Because if you cannot exercise this kind of choice in adult life, you will be totally hosed. Think of the old cliché about "the mind being an excellent servant but a terrible master".

This, like many clichés, so lame and unexciting on the surface, actually expresses a great and terrible truth. It is not the least bit coincidental that adults who commit suicide with firearms almost always shoot themselves in: the head. They shoot the terrible master. And the truth is that most of these suicides are actually dead long before they pull the trigger.

And I submit that this is what the real, no bullshit value of your liberal arts education is supposed to be about: how to keep from going through your comfortable, prosperous, respectable adult life dead, unconscious, a slave to your head and to your natural default setting of being uniquely, completely, imperially alone day in and day out. That may sound like hyperbole, or abstract nonsense. Let's get concrete. The plain fact is that you graduating seniors do not yet have any clue what "day in day out" really means. There happen to be whole, large parts of adult American life that nobody talks about in commencement speeches. One such part involves boredom, routine and petty frustration. The parents and older folks here will know all too well what I'm talking about.

By way of example, let's say it's an average adult day, and you get up in the morning, go to your challenging, white-collar, college-graduate job, and you work hard for eight or ten hours, and at the end of the day you're tired and somewhat stressed and all you want is to go home and have a good supper and maybe unwind for an hour, and then hit the sack early because, of course, you have to get up the next day and do it all again. But then you remember there's no food at home. You haven't had time to shop this week because of your challenging job, and so now after work you have to get in your car and drive to the supermarket. It's the end of the work day and the traffic is apt to be: very bad. So getting to the store takes way longer than it should, and when you finally get there, the supermarket is very crowded, because of course it's the time of day when all the other people with jobs also try to squeeze in some grocery shopping. And the store is hideously lit and infused with soul-killing muzak or corporate pop and it's pretty much the last place you want to be but you can't just get in and quickly out; you have to wander all over the huge, over-lit store's confusing aisles to find the stuff you want and you have to manoeuvre your junky cart through all these other tired, hurried people with carts (et cetera, et cetera, cutting stuff out because this is a long ceremony) and eventually you get all your supper supplies, except now it turns out there aren't enough check-out lanes open even though it's the end-of-the-day rush. So the checkout line is incredibly long, which is stupid and infuriating. But you can't take your frustration out on the frantic lady working the register, who is overworked at a job whose daily tedium and meaninglessness surpasses the imagination of any of us here at a prestigious college.

But anyway, you finally get to the checkout line's front, and you pay for your food, and you get told to "Have a nice day" in a voice that is the absolute voice of death. Then you have to take your creepy, flimsy, plastic bags of groceries in your cart with the one crazy wheel that pulls maddeningly to the left, all the way out through the crowded, bumpy, littery parking lot, and then you have to drive all the way home through slow, heavy, SUV-intensive, rush-hour traffic, et cetera et cetera.

Everyone here has done this, of course. But it hasn't yet been part of you graduates' actual life routine, day after week after month after year.

But it will be. And many more dreary, annoying, seemingly meaningless routines besides. But that is not the point. The point is that petty, frustrating crap like this is exactly where the work of choosing is gonna come in. Because the traffic jams and crowded aisles and long checkout lines give me time to think, and if I don't make a conscious decision about how to think and what to pay attention to, I'm gonna be pissed and miserable every time I have to shop. Because my natural default setting is the certainty that situations like this are really all about me. About MY hungriness and MY fatigue and MY desire to just get home, and it's going to seem for all the world like everybody else is just in my way. And who are all these people in my way? And look at how repulsive most of them are, and how stupid and cow-like and dead-eyed and nonhuman they seem in the checkout line, or at how annoying and rude it is that people are talking loudly on cell phones in the middle of the line. And look at how deeply and personally unfair this is.

Or, of course, if I'm in a more socially conscious liberal arts form of my default setting, I can spend time in the end-of-the-day traffic being disgusted about all the huge, stupid, lane-blocking SUV's and Hummers and V-12 pickup trucks, burning their wasteful, selfish, 40-gallon tanks of gas, and I can dwell on the fact that the patriotic or religious bumper-stickers always seem to be on the biggest, most disgustingly selfish vehicles, driven by the ugliest [responding here to loud applause] (this is an example of how NOT to think, though) most disgustingly selfish vehicles, driven by the ugliest, most inconsiderate and aggressive drivers. And I can think about how our children's children will despise us for wasting all the future's fuel, and probably screwing up the climate, and how spoiled and stupid and selfish and disgusting we all are, and how modern consumer society just sucks, and so forth and so on.

You get the idea.

If I choose to think this way in a store and on the freeway, fine. Lots of us do. Except thinking this way tends to be so easy and automatic that it doesn't have to be a choice. It is my natural default setting. It's the automatic way that I experience the boring, frustrating, crowded parts of adult life when I'm operating on the automatic, unconscious belief that I am the centre of the world, and that my immediate needs and feelings are what should determine the world's priorities.

The thing is that, of course, there are totally different ways to think about these kinds of situations. In this traffic, all these vehicles stopped and idling in my way, it's not impossible that some of these people in SUV's have been in horrible auto accidents in the past, and now find driving so terrifying that their therapist has all but ordered them to get a huge, heavy SUV so they can feel safe enough to drive. Or that the Hummer that just cut me off is maybe being driven by a father whose little child is hurt or sick in the seat next to him, and he's trying to get this kid to the hospital, and he's in a bigger, more legitimate hurry than I am: it is actually I who am in HIS way.

Or I can choose to force myself to consider the likelihood that everyone else in the supermarket's checkout line is just as bored and frustrated as I am, and that some of these people probably have harder, more tedious and painful lives than I do.

Again, please don't think that I'm giving you moral advice, or that I'm saying you are supposed to think this way, or that anyone expects you to just automatically do it. Because it's hard. It takes will and effort, and if you are like me, some days you won't be able to do it, or you just flat out won't want to.

But most days, if you're aware enough to give yourself a choice, you can choose to look differently at this fat, dead-eyed, over-made-up lady who just screamed at her kid in the checkout line. Maybe she's not usually like this. Maybe she's been up three straight nights holding the hand of a husband who is dying of bone cancer. Or maybe this very lady is the low-wage clerk at the motor vehicle department, who just yesterday helped your spouse resolve a horrific, infuriating, red-tape problem through some small act of bureaucratic kindness. Of course, none of this is likely, but it's also not impossible. It just depends what you want to consider. If you're automatically sure that you know what reality is, and you are operating on your default setting, then you, like me, probably won't consider possibilities that aren't annoying and miserable. But if you really learn how to pay attention, then you will know there are other options. It will actually be within your power to experience a crowded, hot, slow, consumer-hell type situation as not only meaningful, but sacred, on fire with the same force that made the stars: love, fellowship, the mystical oneness of all things deep down.

Not that that mystical stuff is necessarily true. The only thing that's capital-T True is that you get to decide how you're gonna try to see it.

This, I submit, is the freedom of a real education, of learning how to be well-adjusted. You get to consciously decide what has meaning and what doesn't. You get to decide what to worship.

Because here's something else that's weird but true: in the day-to-day trenches of adult life, there is actually no such thing as atheism. There is no such thing as not worshipping. Everybody worships. The only choice we get is what to worship. And the compelling reason for maybe choosing some sort of god or spiritual-type thing to worship--be it JC or Allah, be it YHWH or the Wiccan Mother Goddess, or the Four Noble Truths, or some inviolable set of ethical principles--is that pretty much anything else you worship will eat you alive. If you worship money and things, if they are where you tap real meaning in life, then you will never have enough, never feel you have enough. It's the truth. Worship your body and beauty and sexual allure and you will always feel ugly. And when time and age start showing, you will die a million deaths before they finally grieve you. On one level, we all know this stuff already. It's been codified as myths, proverbs, clichés, epigrams, parables; the skeleton of every great story. The whole trick is keeping the truth up front in daily consciousness.

Worship power, you will end up feeling weak and afraid, and you will need ever more power over others to numb you to your own fear. Worship your intellect, being seen as smart, you will end up feeling stupid, a fraud, always on the verge of being found out. But the insidious thing about these forms of worship is not that they're evil or sinful, it's that they're unconscious. They are default settings.

They're the kind of worship you just gradually slip into, day after day, getting more and more selective about what you see and how you measure value without ever being fully aware that that's what you're doing.

And the so-called real world will not discourage you from operating on your default settings, because the so-called real world of men and money and power hums merrily along in a pool of fear and anger and frustration and craving and worship of self. Our own present culture has harnessed these forces in ways that have yielded extraordinary wealth and comfort and personal freedom. The freedom all to be lords of our tiny skull-sized kingdoms, alone at the centre of all creation. This kind of freedom has much to recommend it. But of course there are all different kinds of freedom, and the kind that is most precious you will not hear much talk about much in the great outside world of wanting and achieving.... The really important kind of freedom involves attention and awareness and discipline, and being able truly to care about other people and to sacrifice for them over and over in myriad petty, unsexy ways every day.

That is real freedom. That is being educated, and understanding how to think. The alternative is unconsciousness, the default setting, the rat race, the constant gnawing sense of having had, and lost, some infinite thing.

I know that this stuff probably doesn't sound fun and breezy or grandly inspirational the way a commencement speech is supposed to sound. What it is, as far as I can see, is the capital-T Truth, with a whole lot of rhetorical niceties stripped away. You are, of course, free to think of it whatever you wish. But please don't just dismiss it as just some finger-wagging Dr Laura sermon. None of this stuff is really about morality or religion or dogma or big fancy questions of life after death.

The capital-T Truth is about life BEFORE death.

It is about the real value of a real education, which has almost nothing to do with knowledge, and everything to do with simple awareness; awareness of what is so real and essential, so hidden in plain sight all around us, all the time, that we have to keep reminding ourselves over and over:

"This is water."

"This is water."

It is unimaginably hard to do this, to stay conscious and alive in the adult world day in and day out. Which means yet another grand cliché turns out to be true: your education really IS the job of a lifetime. And it commences: now.

I wish you way more than luck.
This is Water by lejontine
  • Listening to: the fountain soundtrack
  • Drinking: big ol\&#039;glass of water. always.
I have made trip one to the post office. and noted folks :) thank you dearly for you patience.
and will make round two trip to the post office tom. for the last two shippments.
i wanted to say thank you :heart:

to all :heart:

i owe a payment to 2 folks will be to you soon. and wanted to say thank you to all
for you patience and time.
:heart:

wishing all much love and light.

lobo
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  • Listening to: Evan Dando
  • Drinking: big ol&#039;glass of water. always.
i am sorry i have fallen behind. with shipping and payment on a few things. i fully will/am take care of everything. I apologize deeply.
will be noting and update all next day for shipping of a few items. Today is presidents day, therefore, tom. i will resume shipping those few items out. please message me if you need to. thank you kindly

lobo
  • Listening to: Evan Dando
  • Drinking: big ol&#039;glass of water. always.

Warm smiles

Journal Entry: Sun Jan 20, 2013, 3:51 PM
I just wanted to say thank you to all the kind artists and artisans out there...you are my friends.. and dearly ...a huge inspiration !!! thank you much !!!
lobo
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PS. SHIPPING HAS STARTED AGAIN
WILL HAVE THE  PAYMENTS OWED OUT ..ASAP.
THANK YOU KINDLY ALWAYS.
MUCH LOVE AND LIGHT TO ALL.
:heart:

  • Listening to: Evan Dando
  • Drinking: big ol&#039;glass of water. always.

Warm smiles

Journal Entry: Sun Jan 20, 2013, 3:51 PM
I just wanted to say thank you to all the kind artists and artisans out there...you are my friends.. and dearly ...a huge inspiration !!! thank you much !!!
lobo
:snowflake:

  • Listening to: Evan Dando
  • Drinking: big ol&#039;glass of water. always.

when my head works overtime

Journal Entry: Thu Jan 17, 2013, 8:33 PM
today i sat down. and ate my lunch.
i gazed out of the window only to see the sunshine peaking in..and the wind blow.
i had this distant feeling i have had my whole life.
i felt my mind fade out and then ...i saw my daydreams.

first my hand touching a warm sun lit meadow of graze. i saw in my daydream a warm yellow light...and the wind blow...and i saw what my hand looked like...it was not my own..but one of someone long ago.
i saw the yellow meadows lit by the warm sun...and i visiualized warm sunfield light....alomgst the vision.

Gladiator Stamp by ravekitten

i have to draw this. my words never come out ....like i want them. i can only draw it.
but

i came back to my lunch petted my poor husky as he gazed up at me.
and then dreamt of the same place again..

the sight the...sound the smell...so warm and beatiful.
i later closed my eyes and saw in another day dream that of a hand ..not mine...touching a window panal from long ago..the rain trickled down the windows...i dreamt and was again lost in a day dream i have often had my whole life of a place where i could hear the rain fall.

i have had many .."daydreams" like this...same ones over and over.
i never speak of them or draw them.
due to time or the fact that my gift is not to go with grammar and words.

i might try to draw these images.

i have seen a movie lately called the "The tree of life" surreal yes. but well ...i am not sure yet...but it captivated me.

i figured i would share this.
bit of dreams.

i enjoyed my lunch i .....keep day dreaming of these same themes....i hope to paint these.

well thank you for you time.

always

lobo
:heart:

ps.here is a link to "the tree of life"

youtu.be/WXRYA1dxP_0

not so sure yet...but i will watch it again...it has so very beautiful moments..and images. :)


finally thank you to all the dear and kind souls ....artists, artisans and friends....you really make life wonderful.
warm smiles.


pardon my horrid grammar and typos.
much love and light always.

  • Listening to: Evan Dando
  • Drinking: big ol&#039;glass of water. always.